On Monday, only four days ago, we moved the couches, shoved the end tables aside, and set up a work table in the kitchen/living room so that we could seal up the hole in the roof, better known as the sky light.

Since Monday I have not washed the floors, and I have only swept in a sort of kind of way, just to get the largest chinks of plaster out of the way. Why do a big clean when we are just going to be making a mess the next morning?

Since Monday I have watched the piles of dog hair settle in the corners of the room, gathering against the floor fan and molding themselves to the rug.

I’m getting desperate here people, I might even try a hair loss for men product on her! I cannot keep up with all the hair she sheds. We even took her to a groomer to have her hair professionally brushed to get rid of some of the excess hair and it is still so bad!

There is a very real possibility that i might go insane from the hair!

They say, in all the websites and pamphlets, the pharmacist and my doctor said it too, that when you quit smoking you should tell a lot of people so they can support you.

And so, with this in mind, I told my mother and father in law that i had started chantix. They, more than any person I know, want me to quit. So it made sense to tell them, who best to get support from, than the people closest to me who most want me to quit?

Not so much, as it turns out.

Instead I was subjected to a 40 minute lecture on how, in order to stop smoking I need to want it really bad, and if i cannot do it cold turkey, then obviously I do not want it bad enough and I am just wasting my money.

I was told that if i REALLY wanted to quit I would take cholesterol supplement becuase i need more exercises and that if I would only go for a walk a day, my good cholesterol would go to a better level and I would not need to smoke.

FUCK THEM.

I do want to quit, but I am not an idiot. I have been smoking for OVER half my life, I am not ashamed to admit that i need chemical help to break the habit.

I told them becuase I wanted to here “WOOHOO! You can do it!” not a lecture on why I will fucking fail